Okay... I just realized how long it's been since I posted a journal... So let's see, since my last one, I graduated high school, hung out with friends, worked, worked, and worked, and went to a club a couple of times, among other things. I also started shopping and stuff for college - I move in 4 days from now, and I'm super excited!!!!! I had a brief summer relationship that I'm honestly regretting a little bit, because of what's going on with it now... But that's that, I guess.
Recently, I feel like I've been doing everything wrong, and nothing right - I can't help, I can't be truthful with some people without being hurtful at the same time, and I just don't know what to do anymore.
My most recent ex is a super sweet guy - he treated me like a princess, most of the time - but he's had a tough time, and he has some issues. He gets depressed - easily and a LOT. He sometimes would say super creepy things - but he wasn't trying to be creepy. He was really touchy feely - he couldn't keep his hands to himself. He got angry over the concept of certain things. He made me feel guilty every time I hung out with friends, telling me that he was lonely and depressed for that time span. He hated it when I did certain things, like going to the club with my friends. He was jealous of certain friends. I broke up with him, telling him it was because I couldn't handle a long distance relationship, which was a part of it too, and he didn't give me the chance to try and tell him the other things nicely, and now I feel really guilty, because now I can't tell him the other reasons without being a total bitch about, so I have no idea what to do about that.... Please don't judge me on this...
I'm really excited about college, though, and can't wait till I move in. My roommate and I seem to be getting along really well, and I'm glad that we are. I have four classes, though I might see if I can get a 5th added into my schedule. I know which dorm I'm in, and I'm a part of the honors program at my school. I can't wait to start, and can't wait to make a bunch of new friends at school!